DARKNESS ETC

speech being the problem, that
darkness was upon the face of the deep.
and the darkness moved.
should I say darkness?
that the world was cut in two.
and from this cleavage came a great outpouring.
the notion of
history.

when history began,
it began in the mind.

nowhere around us, is history.
there are, things.

like tables,
but they have always been there.

which is to say,
they're there currently,
so they've always been there,
always being a very brief period of time.

take a line for a walk and follow it.

if you would walk long enough
in one direction
you find one day you would arrive
in the future.

a kind of futuristic city,
covering the earth's surface.

i don't think mad max was meant to be a trilogy.
i don't think the matrix was ever made at all.
it's a kind of fiction.

something is wrong with the world.
something's wrong with me, I think.

and darkness was upon the face of the deep.
and the world was without form.

darkness was upon the face of the deep
how long does the darkness go on for?

i don't like to say 4am.
you might not understand what I mean.

3am you're at the club.
you're about to leave the club and go home.

4am, something terrible has happened,
or, nothing is happening.

at 4am there is no indication of light.
but one knows

the light will be coming soon
the world is

(or should I say I am)
expectant.

expectation does not belong in the world.
it is inside us, and

you might
ask

what if it had been 4am forever?
that

further back than you can remember,
darkness.

not stillness. the crashing of waves.
on the rocks.

in the dark.

...

and the face of the deep.
the ocean being like the sky.

in that it's blue, and cold,
(and we cannot live there).

our life is a narrow band.
the earth, as they say.

the earth is a narrow band around
ourselves.

the earth is a narrow band.
and walking on the earth.

and darkness was upon the face of the deep.
and the spirit was moving over the face of the waters.

or

the wind was moving over the face of the waters.
or the air was moving over the face of the waters
and darkness was upon the face of the waters

in the deep.

in the deep
there is no water.

there is no water at the bottom of the ocean.
there is only darkness,
an eternal sea of darkness,
4am.

in the valleys where the dead walk,
or in the car,
4am.

and darkness moved upon the face of the deep.
and the wind moved over the waters.
4am.

in apollo bay,
or the bay of fundy,
where

can you imagine
not stillness,
but

constant movement.
in,
and out every day.

well.
day not being the right word.

imagine the ocean at night.
imagine a night so profound
that no-one ever understood the word
night.

when I say it you hear it.
but imagine it was like uh or egh
night. ughg

you wouldn't hear it.
you look at it and there's nothing there.
remember how I said expectation is inside of us?

this being
the same thing.
the night (see you understood the word
you heard it
and you saw the ocean at night
where?
where is the ocean at night?
is it still there?
let's go there now the ocean at night)

darkness moved on the face of the deep.
and the wind, uh, moved upon the waters.

if you wanna pay attention
to the wind and the water,

if you wanna go surfing,

at all times the words that come next are
a function of those that came before.

that at no time
are we ever

free to speak.
Let's say I wanted to tell you about it.

I couldn't!
What words could I possibly use?

Yours?
You don't know about it that's the whole problem.

But,
speaking not just being the words,

but a kind of sobbing sound,
like this.

An intense sound that becomes associated
with crying.

I don't have to do that but I could
if I wanted to.

Or felt the urge.
Which I have, sometimes.

Not,
it's uncommon.

If I wanted to.
And that of course is very difficult.

Probably the most difficult we experience here on earth, that,
the earth as they say.

You can have anything you want.
But where does desire come from?

I don't have an answer to that question.
TV?

Might come from TV,
some of it.

I saw certain images on TV.
There was a kind of purple circle.

And,
a yellow one.

And the purple circle and the yellow circle were placed next to each other.
This of course being intensely symbolic.

And darkness was upon the face of the deep
and the word was without form.